T minus four days until takeoff.
As of Saturday, February third, I will be traveling out of my home country for the first time in my entire life, for a two month service trip to Costa Rica.
And I’m beginning to feel quite anxious.
Not only have I never travelled internationally before, but I am doing so alone.
Maybe if I was a seasoned traveler, or if I wasn’t such an introvert, I wouldn’t be so worried.
But I’m not.
I’m actually the type of person who has to take deep breaths before answering a simple phone call, or better yet, I’ll hold my pee for hours in a public place because I’m too afraid to ask someone where the bathroom is.
Yet somehow, alongside that part of me that’s lowkey freaking out, another huge part of me is excited to travel alone. Either way, I know spending two months as a volunteer in Costa Rica is going to be a fantastic and eye-opening experience, but going solo is going to push me out of my comfort zone in so many positive ways.
For one, I’m gonna have to get over that stupid social anxiety I have. There’s no way I’ll survive an extended stay in a foreign country without speaking to anyone. Especially in the situation I’ve signed up for.
I’m also going to have to get used to regularly speaking another language. My Spanish isn’t great, and when I do speak, I’m insecure about whether or not I’m saying things correctly. I know it’d be better with a little bit of confidence. I’m really hoping to become more fluent in that area. I’ve heard immersion is a fantastic way to learn.
With that being said, there are so many other things I’m looking forward to.
Like, I know I’m about to discover more about myself. I work a lot, so I have this routine lifestyle I’m used to and I’m always busy. I don’t have time to think about, well…anything. Going to a foreign place where I don’t know a single person is going to require me to share about myself to those people, so I’m quite certain it’s going to push me to think more about who I am.
And most importantly, the purpose of this excursion in the first place is to fulfill my lifelong dream of travelling and volunteering abroad. So of course I’m looking forward to it.
I’ll be keeping this blog up to date with pictures and stories along the way.
P.S. Life’s a frickin ride, and I cannot wait to see where it’s about to take me.